The awkward silence that rushes through my skin. As I lay here with a guy that I thought was my forever, but deep down I know he isn’t. I don’t deserve a guy who would cheat on in a heartbeat if he had the chance. I have someone that lies to me more than saying the truth. Then I swallow this thought with exhale of three words… I love you,
Take me away from this world.
I just want to cry and sleep and pretend that I am actually happy. Fuck making people think that I smile all the fucking time because I don’t. I don’t show my true self crying out for attention that nobody gives. Fuck everything and fuck off.
Hmm, let see I am about a week late on my period and it’s scaring the shit out of me.
Marriage and Kids
It’s a scary thing that everyone thinks about. Is it bad that I want it now? Is it bad that the only thing that will make me happy is the a baby, and me getting married? I don’t know. I’m ready but I know he isn’t.
So many disappointments in my life, so many times I fell for all these lies. Fuck everything, I’m done.